So this is it. December 21, today was my last day of school. And I am on winter vacation for the next 10 days. I am frustrated because you are so far away. I am sad because you did not respond to my last email (November 15) and lonely because you made me feel so safe in your arms.
Every time I go on a date with someone else and they ask me what I am looking for, I look at them blankly and say you, in my head of course not out loud- and then I know I can never go out with them again.
I wish It was not so hard for me to let the thought of you go. Sometimes I am scared that if I let the thought of you go, that means I have let you go and if I let you go then no on will occupy my thoughts, and if I am feeling sad there will be empty space where your memory was and I am just not ready to lose the memory. Why is it so hard for me? We met in January of last year. Our first date was February 10, 2012. Almost 1 year ago.
I wish you would come back. Not for a day, a week or a month. I want you in my life, until our relationship comes to an end. Not because you moved away or ran out of money, but because we mutually agreed that our love no longer has any meaning.IDk